In other words, I’m pretty sure it was a copy/paste job from my commission page with post-editing to suit their website.

No one’s going to notice it other than me, really. But I worked hard to come up with the contents of my website, so it stings a bit when someone can’t even be bothered at least to properly paraphrase the whole chunk of text.

Better yet, they could have just come up with original text in the first place. It’s not rocket science, y’know.

Since moving to Newcastle, I’ve started taking commissions for dolly faceups again, and this was one that I’d recently completed that I liked very much.

She’s a Volks Amelia, and the owner wanted her to be feminine, yet somewhat sexy. Generally, I do feel that this sculpt looks better as a male doll, but I had fun repainting this one as a girl anyway! Somehow, she reminds me of an old hollywood beauty.

I’m going to be flying back to Melbourne tomorrow for a short holiday, so won’t be able to work on any faceups for the next week or so, but when I’m back, I’ll be waiting on a few new commissions to arrive, so am looking forward to that!

I guess that’s partly why I losing the enjoyment of sharing my dolly hobby with others in forums and on Flickr? I still love the dolls I have, but it’s become a more personal interest – I find I have the need to share and get approval (in a sense) from others.

Anyway, I’m off back to Melbourne tomorrow till Saturday. Cannot wait to see the family and catch up with a few friends again!

There are so many things that I wish we could agree on – they’re little things, really, but they add up.

Let’s just say I hate technicalities – they screw up stuff too often.

Minor positive note is that I still get to be here for The Doll Affair, which was something I was looking forward to on this trip. I’m finding myself treating the doll hobby as a more personal/individual form of enjoyment of late – TDA should be a nice change – it’ll be something I can enjoy with other doll enthusiasts, but yet, not feel obliged to be totally social (since I reckon it’ll be pretty packed at the venue on the day). Plus, it’ll probably be the closest I can get to an event like the Volks Dolpa for a while.

It’ll be good to have it down on my resume; but the time at the job has maybe in a way contributed to stress on my relationship with the boy. He can never handle distance and time apart well, and me being in Melbourne, and him being interstate doesn’t help matters. Of course, it would be good if he had moved here, since throughout my time at this job, he has been helping out at home and doing freelance work; but due to family circumstances and his other personal reasons (that he rather not share); he’s stayed firmly where he is.

With the last day at work looming; I can’t help but feel a sense of impending freedom tinged with a bit dread.

Freedom since I no longer (at least for a period) have to wake up at fixed hours for fear of being late to work, and also since I will be home in Singapore for the Christmas and to usher in 2009. It’s been a year since I’ve been back to visit family and friends, and I do miss the people and place. Dread since the future is so sketchy – Not sure how easy/hard it will be for me to find work once I’m back from my holiday and also where I’ll be – whether back in Melbourne, or if I’m moving to Newcastle to be with the boy.

I’ve got no idea where my personal relationship with the boy stands at the moment. We’ve grown apart in the 6 years we’re a couple, and we’ve both changed so much. I would like us both to embrace the change and grow both as individuals and as a couple, but he’s said he doesn’t like change and want things back as they were. Does this mean he doesn’t like me much anymore then? One can wonder. I have a fear of moving to Newcastle and not feeling wanted or needed – I’ve never dreamt of growing old there as I’m more of a city girl, but would be willing to give it a go for the sake of the boy. He’s mentioned before that if he had to choose between his hometown and me (in relation to moving), the hometown gets priority.

I think at this stage, we’re both not sure if it’s worth all the angst we’re putting outselves through; there are great days of us together, but it’s getting few and far between lately. I’m visiting him next weekend for a few days before I fly back to Singapore; hopefully we can get decide one way or the other. I love him, but sometimes, I don’t know if it’s enough anymore.

Everyone just breathe and take 2 steps back and reassess if all this is really necessary.